15DEC09.

FUCK ME FUCKING DEAAAAAAAD :(
what is wrong with me ? letting go someone i once loved for the most stupidest reason after like .. four months ?

and getting over it cs of exams yeah whatever good enough ..

.. yay i've moved on and maybe i became a flirt? SO WHATS IT TO YOU STUPID LIL FUCKING ASSMONKEYS ?
im single, i can flirt, cant i ? you cant control me and how i feel ..

ANYWAYS, SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT .. I HAD THE MASSIVEST CRUSH ON ..
ATTENTIONNNNNNNNN !

fuckkkkkk, i liked you alot, you know that .. you liked me back ? so i dont get what went wrong between us. me and my ex broke up, and i was excited because you said you'd wait for me .. no matter what.
and right now, you had/have your chance. we've been flirting like crazy, as if theres no fucking tmr and what happens .. you turn me down, saying you dont feel the same, saying you dont know what others will think? YOU TOLD ME YOU FEEL THE SAME, what happened? i dont friggin care what other people think. you know how i feel about you, you know i .. "like" you, i have for a long time. and i know its wrong, buh.. so what ? you told me, you once or so said "i love you" to me .. now your saying we have too many differences ?

WE CAN MAKE IT WORK YOU KNOW ? yeah we hardly see each other, BUH WE CAN ATLEAST TRY ? like .. so what? me and one of my ex's who i .. really did like .. we lasted a whole term not seeing each other. we trussted each other, and we got thru it, i dont get why me and you cant? Is it so hard to .. so hard to like .. trust me ? yeah your in a girl and boy school, buh i do trust you, you know i do. yeah your a flirt, you flirt with everyone .. BUT IT DOESNT CHANGE THE FRIGGIN WAY I FEEL ABOUT YOU .
everything you told me today .. set the tears on my face .. and .. i pretty much give up now ..
so im guessing .. yeah its a goodbye ..
ill miss you .. =='