15DEC09.

FUCK ME FUCKING DEAAAAAAAD :(
what is wrong with me ? letting go someone i once loved for the most stupidest reason after like .. four months ?

and getting over it cs of exams yeah whatever good enough ..

.. yay i've moved on and maybe i became a flirt? SO WHATS IT TO YOU STUPID LIL FUCKING ASSMONKEYS ?
im single, i can flirt, cant i ? you cant control me and how i feel ..

ANYWAYS, SOMEONE OUT THERE THAT .. I HAD THE MASSIVEST CRUSH ON ..
ATTENTIONNNNNNNNN !

fuckkkkkk, i liked you alot, you know that .. you liked me back ? so i dont get what went wrong between us. me and my ex broke up, and i was excited because you said you'd wait for me .. no matter what.
and right now, you had/have your chance. we've been flirting like crazy, as if theres no fucking tmr and what happens .. you turn me down, saying you dont feel the same, saying you dont know what others will think? YOU TOLD ME YOU FEEL THE SAME, what happened? i dont friggin care what other people think. you know how i feel about you, you know i .. "like" you, i have for a long time. and i know its wrong, buh.. so what ? you told me, you once or so said "i love you" to me .. now your saying we have too many differences ?

WE CAN MAKE IT WORK YOU KNOW ? yeah we hardly see each other, BUH WE CAN ATLEAST TRY ? like .. so what? me and one of my ex's who i .. really did like .. we lasted a whole term not seeing each other. we trussted each other, and we got thru it, i dont get why me and you cant? Is it so hard to .. so hard to like .. trust me ? yeah your in a girl and boy school, buh i do trust you, you know i do. yeah your a flirt, you flirt with everyone .. BUT IT DOESNT CHANGE THE FRIGGIN WAY I FEEL ABOUT YOU .
everything you told me today .. set the tears on my face .. and .. i pretty much give up now ..
so im guessing .. yeah its a goodbye ..
ill miss you .. =='

LOL ey bitcchhh ..

soo like ..

your the bitch who told a bitch that im a bitch?
well listen bitch, it takes a bitch to know a bitch to call a
bitch a bitch, bitch !



yeee, watch it brutha .


i have bitch fits, im sorry :(

on the phone with ate emem..

Quotes that make us think and remember the stuff that meant heaps to us and things that we'll never forget ..
HAAAAAAAAA.. most depresing convo me and emem has ever had .. :(

"turning a friend into a lover is way easier than turning a lover into a friend .. D:"

"i knew that looking back on the tears would make me laugh, but i never knew that looking back on the laughs would make me cry"

"Love can hurt when you give someone your everything, your whole heart .. And they return it in pieces"

"Love is like a war. Easy to start, hard to end and impossible to forget.."


"Dont hold on to anger, hurt or pain. they steal your energy and keep you from love .."

"It is terrible to be alone, and TERRIBLE TO BE IN LOVE.. but one is cheaper than the other .."

"First impressions are everything. Conversations are the rest. Where my heart still is, I admit I'm not too sure. And it got me thinking, what is the fine line between loving someone and being in love with them? What makes you think that they're your only one? What makes you think your heart won't change? When the sky starts to cry, I become reminiscent and lonely. Although I like to think I've moved on, I can't help but think that I shouldn't have let go, I should've held on tighter"

"The beginning was so pure and pubescent, virgin and untainted.When a person is gone, should you miss him or remember him?If you miss him, do you look back at old pictures and cry?If you remember him, do you think of the tone of his voice, his laughter?Do you think back to the conversations between you and him?Conversations between Us? "




YEEEEEEEAH, thats it for now i guess ..

Jessica, what do you dislike ?

what dont i dislike ?
(OMG I HAVE PINS & NEEDLES, IT KILLS.. )
pfft .


i hate .. hrmm .
2face biatches
LIFE, LIKE OMFFFFFFG .. WHY IS MY LIFE CRAP ?-____-
boys, they ruin us without giving a care .
"friends" who like.. bitch about someone, bestfriends the next.

People are ALWAYS telling me to smile,
they keep saying 'its ok, everything will be fine..'
NO, this shits not going aaway .. its not okay
things arent fine .. its not like smiling is
going to take all this pain awayy :(

and more (Y)
AND I HATE PINS AND NEEDLES, FAAAAAAAAAAAAH D:

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKK,
EVERYTHING IS SO FUCKED UP.
NO MOTHER FUCKING JOKE .
this family
these 'friends'
faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahs ,
i fuckign swearrrrrrrr .


AND dont cha just hate it when people say
'iloveyou'
when they dont mean it ?
LOVE IS A FUCKING STRONG ASSS WORD ,
why say it if you dont mean it,
its so fucking stupid ..



anyways ..
i need to runaway from these stupid useless problems ,
fucken hell, why do i bother crying over these things ..

FAAAAAAAAHS =='

Okay , i seriously dont know what the hell im doing.
all this crap is so hard for me, its like these guys know their
hurting me , without giving a freaking shit.


Honestly, i hate guys so freaking muchh ..
well i love them, then they turn away and hurt me so bad
and they know their doing it ..

YOU FRIGGGIN SAY YOU DONT CAREEEEEE,
and yet you go wanting to hurt people ..
you told me to fuck off, you told me to move on,
and so i do .. i let go of you , and yes it fucking killed.
I keep tryna fix us, make us at least friends buh
every freaking time i try, we end up fighting ..
so i dont get what the point of me trying ..


blablabla.